GirlRobot's Pod - by Droniela

Yo!

I'm still alive!

I did quit social media though. Not the first time I do it of course, every once in a while I leave it to detox or whatever.

And far from me to say I'm not coming back, but this time feels... different.

First of all, the first step: I admit I am addicted to social media.

When I'm in it, it consumes my life with easy pseudo-social interactions and easy pseudo-attention. As I crave both of those, it's easy for me to lose hours doomscrolling and posting.

But that also sort of precludes me from engaging with real stuff in real life in a really stupid way?

And how does it feel different? Well, most of the times when I leave social media, it feels like rehab. Like some time I need to breathe after too much exposure, but I miss it and I want to go back, and then eventually I do come back, refreshed, only to feel spent a few months later again.

This time it doesn't feel like rehab. It feels like I am free.

Again, I'm not saying I'll never come back, but I absolutely do not feel the urge. I do not miss it.

My day suddenly feels like I have an extra 4 hours to do stuff and I feel *WAY* less exhausted, even with work and college demanding a lot of me.

I play more games, I watch more shows, I do more stuff in general. I haven't been this productive at work in who knows for how long.

In my work there is a lot of downtime (waiting for stuff to compile, waiting for code reviews, etc) that I used to fill with social media.

Not anymore, now whenever I have those mandatory downtimes I go do SOMETHING ELSE.

I clean something, I work on another task, I go solve a problem. I've been called a CODE GODDESS (by someone that is not a dev so take that with a grain of salt) because I was working on 7 different repos at the same time for different tasks lol

I work out better at the gym because I no longer lose 5 minutes between routines checking social media, so I'm getting more gains while spending the same time at the gym.

I'm drawing again. I'm doing sexy stuff without worrying about making it into content and posting it. It's a true renaissance over here.

Sooooo yeah. If you want to see news from me, you will have to check this website frequently. I am slowly upgrading it with new features. The last one was inserting analytics so I can see if people are reading it. Next thing is a proper back-end so I no longer write those as individual react components lol

After that, I intend to do some sort of notification when I post. A Newsletter? Do people still use RSS? I'll figure that out later.

I also intend on getting some sort of way for you to contact me that is not intrusive and subject to spam.

On other news: I finally started getting my bracers installed! Yay!

I also started taking medication to deal with my anxiety and social phobia. But this is going to take a while before I feel the difference.

I think I am going well. Not being immersed in bad news coming from that cursed land 24/7 surely helps. It's not like I can do anything anyway. I'm hoping things get better, I'm rooting for all my trans friends over there, but I can't keep looking at it everyday anymore. I can't even help financially.

I guess that is it for today! Have a good one!